SPN 3.16, and I have no willpower and what to do?

[kassidy62]

I'm at about episode 3.5 now. Next weekend I'm running away with my girlfriends and will surely catch up to the rest of the season.However, the season cliffhanger comes on Thursday, we'll be leaving Friday night or Saturday. I have already seen the preview and am almost (and wouldn't that be a relief) speechless. 

Problem: In an appalling display, I've exhibited absolutely no willpower since the return of episodes after the strike, reading reviews and LJs about the current episodes, and I'm going to let myself be SPOILED when I could wait 48 hours and find out on my own? God I'm weak. I am ASHAMED.

What the hell do I do? Get drunk, hide my laptop, hide out in the basement? I am NOT HAPPY WITH MYSELF. I don't know if I can resist!

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Re: You Gotta

[kassidy62.livejournal.com]

You know, I saw Jensen in a play a few months ago--he's even purtier in person, and I say that even though Sammy is my favorite. Give me a cerebral, guilt-ridden guy with long legs and I'm there every time:)

We are SO alike in this - I'm exactly the same way. Sammy's my favorite, but I adore Dean. The actor is incredible, and the chemistry between the two guys is so touching.

I feel like I'm about to do a Seinfeld imitation with he whole "not that there's anything wrong with that" kind of thing, but I mean it. I have absolutely no issues with anyone enjoying the Wincest, and I'll pick up a sign (do we have signs?) and walk a line defending anyone's rights to read and write what they enjoy, but I know for me it won't ever be my thing. I watch the show in a gen universe. But I still get to keep my "I Am a Big Old Slasher" union card:)

I can understand that - supporting someone's interest without being into it yourself, sure. I can't really even explain why Wincest works for me. When I first started reading slash. I didn't get it and I was thinking, "what in the world?" and "why?" but open-minded, just trying to see why people liked it. I honestly had no clue. I wonder if that sort of initial pondering about slash itself provided me with the easy leap I made to reading and enjoying Wincest, because slash is a fantasy thing for me and not something I needed to think was really *happening* within the boundaries of the show's canon or in the actor's lives, necessarily, but still something I adore and enjoy immensely as an take-off/growth that arose from the original. I think it's okay (and a huge relief to me because I have ALWAYS resented being boxed in or told what I'm supposed to like or dislike or approve or disapprove of) to have a disconnect between what you enjoy reading or fantasizing about vs. what your attitude might be about certain real life issues - it all gets too weighty for me to impose conditions on things that I need to be able to be really free with. Hope that makes sense?