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[kassidy62]

I have reached the end of Supernatural season 1 by doing a marathon viewing last weekend which ended in my girlfriends and I staying up until near dawn. This show has the darkness I love, and I adore the twisty tangled family relationships a lot. I wanted to make some general comments on the episodes the same as I did for episodes 1-5, but that's not happening today. 

My friend Cheryl thinks Cass and I are twisty tangled ourselves for liking the Wincest (but she loves us and she's an open-minded mundane). We tell her it's A SHOW, IT'S FANTASY. Two hot guys, huge co-dependency things going on with isolation, self-sacrifice and terror (also: BLUD) on a regular basis. PRIMO fodder for fiction.

And thank God, by the way, that so far I've missed all the apparent drama and divisions that occurred in the fandom over slash/Wincest. So far. There's something to be said for coming in late to a fandom. 

I like a lot of things in my fiction that I consider atrocious or intolerable in any real way (non-con, the tearing down of someone's psyche, layer by layer, dark dark dark stuff), but my fantasy life is just that, complete fantasy and hugely enjoyable to me. I am gleefully and violently in love with it - it's so freeing, if that makes sense. 

But I have a theory, too, that the fandom people who like the dark stuff are probably peaceniks in RL, though honestly, I have nothing to back that up other than an acquaintance with people who prefer dark!fic. And okay, I'm not someone I'd call gentle, ever, but I feed birds and I have pets (and children:) and I do a lot of taking care of others. I'm responsible as all hell.  I remember when I was a kid, I used to think inanimate things had feelings, and worrying about that. And as an adult, I can still get angsty over killing bugs, even - I find the idea of literally harming someone unbearable.  I don't think that will ever change unless someone were to harm my family, at which point who can say what would change.

The point of this ramble? Not sure - I haven't posted awhile, I guess. And it's time to go to work. Hope the weekend is good to you:)

Comments

[giandujakiss.livejournal.com]

Hee. Wait til you get to the early eps of S2.

[kassidy62.livejournal.com]

Really? Really???? I CANNOT WAIT. I'm trying to behave and watch everything in order, but it gets difficult.

I love Sam - he's thinky and hurty, and trying to go into the house that time and kill the yellow-eyed demon, no matter he might die in the process (he's a drama boy, he is). He's serious angst fodder, with his visions and having tried so hard to escape this kind of life. But that life came after him. He suffers so beautifully, does Sam:)

And then Dean, he's thinking that hunting IS his life, that he was born to it. Yet he's the one saying, no, I hope we never find the demon if it means that Sam dies. How can you not love him? And his respect and obeisance to his father, which I at first found irritating, is now somehow a heartbreaker. Because he holds to him and to his family above all else. That's all he has and it's all that matters.

Very interesting to me that Dean started questioning his father's decisions later in the season after Sam had been with him awhile.


Hey, G, I don't suppose you wouldn't happen to have a good clean copy of One Supernatural Weekend vid, do you? Probably not, but you're listening to me ramble, so thought it couldn't hurt to ask - are you familiar with it? I can only find it on youtube and I love the vid, but I'd love to see a high-res version.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=RlHvlSaKNtk

[giandujakiss.livejournal.com]

I don't have a copy - sorry! And yes, exactly - Dean becomes more willing to question John as he travels with Sam. And Dean's desperation to hold on to his family is just the heartbreak at the center of the series ... oh Dean!

[tipitiwitchet.livejournal.com]

Just sent you an email, but thought I would comment so bluddy Dean could be with bluddy Sam. *smushes them together*

So looking forward to wallowing in some Supernatural tomorrow night. And remind me to bring the snakes! I totally forgot that you wanted to try them again.

SMOOCH

[kassidy62.livejournal.com]

THE BLUD BROTHERS. Yum.

Giandujakiss just told me -wait until you see early on in season 2, so I'm looking forward.

Yes, snakes! I forgot, too, but I'd love to try them.

[simonesa.livejournal.com]

Welcome to the fandom. I hardly notice the wank. I just don't have time for the drama. I do know that there are those who protest the wincest. To be honest, I was once in those numbers. LOL. It was NUMB3RS that showed me the light. I remember hearing about Simon and Simon when I was a wee bitty fan new to the shiny internet and saying aloud, "but, they're brothers!" I guess I never had a problem with supposed "Kansas cousins" ;-P

Anyway, I think you saw the show in the best possible way. I watched SPN week to week from the beginning. Then some fen gathered in Dallas the August after the first season with some rough episodes painfully downloaded from the Internet in bit torrents. We had ourselves a little marathon inhaling 20+ hours of the show in one weekend. There is nothing to compare. It is full immersion therapy. I still have such intensely fond memories of that weekend.

I don't know if I am a peacenik, but I tend to live quietly. Not one to seek out confrontation or torture small cute animals. I do confess a weakness for dark fic. I have a taste for vampires. I love the anti-hero. And have been known to seek out rape fic. Maybe if more people had this kind of outlet there would be less violence in the world.